Dealing with Fear
A student from Hong Kong had been very ill with kidney problems. She often found herself frightened at night-time and unable to sleep. She had dreamt three times that she had been fired from her job, that she was vomiting, and that there were feces on the floor. She was afraid there was something very wrong and thought perhaps she should quit her job. She wrote Rinpoche seeking counsel.
It is good to continue to work in your office. Vomiting and defecating is a positive dream. Don’t worry.
Above your head, in your bedroom, you should keep His Holiness the Dalai Lama’s portrait, a picture of Thousand-arm Chenrezig, and my portrait. Believe that all the buddhas and the bodhisattvas are there and are protecting you.
Recite the mantra of Tathagatha Victorious One Holder of the Earth:
TADYATHA / OM DHARE DHARE / DHARANI BANDHE SVAHA
Recite this at least seven times a day, more is better. Do this to fulfill all your wishes and all your prayers—positive wishes that don’t harm others.
You should practice White Umbrella deity mantra by completely taking refuge in the White Umbrella deity. You can discuss this with the spiritual program coordinator at your Dharma center. The mantra can be in the text, or in the center of a protection mandala. Recite it until you feel OK. It would be very good if you could do this every day. Also, have a picture of White Umbrella deity in your room to help with your health problems and also for this present situation.
For your health problem, you should take some erma. Erma is a delicious spice from Nepal. In my observations it came out very good for your health.
May your life be most meaningful with bodhicitta, to benefit others through the day and night.