My very dear one,

Whenever you see a person, don't think of the skin, just look only at the insides, the bones, skeleton, and flesh, all the dirty things in the stomach.

Think, “This is purification.” When we experience depression and suffering, it is the result of negative karma.

I read your fax. I understand. Your depression and feeling miserable about samsara is some kind of understanding of reality. This is positive. But now you have to use that understanding to develop compassion. You must try to do this.

The first method is to keep your distance when your mind is weak. Otherwise, if you do anything physically, this can cause you to damage your vows and your liberation. In such a situation, any action can bring danger.

My very dear Laurence,How are you? Are things going better now?

My dear one,Sorry about the delay. Here is my reply. You need to do Yamantaka retreat; this would be very good. I will do mamo-trü-kang and she-nyin dü-dog puja for you. If you can, ask Geshe-la to do chag-sum puja for you.

If you are a real nun in the FPMT then you can get money from the Lama Yeshe Sangha Fund. If you really don’t have money, this is one way to manage if you cannot find external sponsors.

Since it was rape, the intercourse that happened was not your choice. It was force, like a torture. The other thing is that since you didn’t enjoy it, you didn’t experience pleasure.

Rinpoche sent the following letter regarding a conference about bhikshuni ordination.